If it was still painful after all this time it must have been really, really bad
Two problems really, the first was that my first two games had gone really well, although looking back on it they were one sided games with some of the better behaved teams. I let myself think that it was going to be easier than I thought at this level.
For the next game, I didn't know it at the time but the teams had history and really didn't like each other. Someone had also told both teams that I was a brand new referee at that level, and they were on at me right from kick off. I started making silly decisions, like clearly seeing a goal kick and signalling a corner, and the more I tried to put it right the worse I got, something that I unfortunately had a habit of doing even when I went up to L3. Had a red card for an elbow off the ball, but unfortunately I only saw the reaction and not the first offence that caused it. I gave a penalty where there were no appeals, managing to surprise everyone, and ended up losing all semblance of control. I was physically and mentally drained at the end, once of those games where you just want the ground to open up and swallow you to get you out of there.
Basically I wasn't ready. The assessor highlighted numerous problems, I was running too much and coming way off my diagonal as if I had no assistants, and this meant I was missing things. And when I gave a decision I always then looked down at the ground, and the players seized on this as a sign of weakness, We didn't get the mark back then, but if it was above 60 I would have been surprised, but way more important than the mark was the fact he spent so much time with me trying to build me back up.
As I said, I'd gone 6 to 4 and really only had experience of refereeing on the AFC, a league known for its sporting behaviour. There was no requirement back then to be doing supply league lines, so I had absolutely no experience of step 5 football.